Tired

她對發生在她身邊的事不太在乎﹐儘管對他人來說那些事情發生在她身上。他們總會過來索取那些他們自認需要的部份。世界上大部份的事情都無可奈何﹐她無法認同﹐於是忍耐。忍耐便是容許被侮辱。她會說“這不是我要的”或是“不”。但他們總會堅持。於是她接受因為不想解釋。她痛恨積欠。而且她累了。

那樣就那樣吧。這樣就這樣。她要爭取﹐就招人恨。她覺得麻煩。每次解釋都像擰自己脖子﹐他們則準備好來吐口水。她為要避免歉意﹐便對自己犯罪。那是她自己的﹐比較乾脆。

她永遠都不會原諒她們。

She does not really care about things happening around her, even most of people would say they are what's happening "to" her. She would have an idea, then everyone wants a piece of it. They want to put things right in their way, like it have everything to do with them. Most of things are repulsive, she cannot agree with them, but she can take. Humiliation. She would say "It's not what I want," or "No." But they insists. So she takes to save the trouble to explain. She hates to be in debt. And she is tired.

So that is that. These are these. If she fights for it she get despised. It's troublesome. Everytime she explains she feels like choking herself, while they are standing by ready to spit on her. She doesn't want to feel sorry, so she is sinful to herself. At least she knows what happens, and everybody else goes home happy.

She will never forgive nor forget.